And Then God whispered......

Good day friends,

I pray that this message finds you well. On this morning the Lord has given me a prophetic word for those of you that will receive it and I pray that it arrives right on time....

I literally just received the most beautiful message of gratitude from an awesome sister in Christ. She was thanking me for a small act of love and relationship that I performed in her life some years ago when she wasn't at her best that has continued to bless her even until this day... As my heart bubbled over with love and appreciation for the power of God that used me to bless my sister I heard a word of reminder that the Lord has released me to share with you all....

As simple as God said it to me....I will say it to you...............................





IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!


I don't know who needs to hear that on today but please know this and believe it with every fiber of your being....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I dare you to speak it out loud to yourself or even say it to someone else!

IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

The moment you declare this to yourself and the circumstances that have you bound even in this very hour you begin the process of coming out. One of the most wicked tricks of the enemy is to cause you to believe that there is no better tomorrow for your hard today.

The bible declares in John 10:10:

¹⁰ The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I (Jesus Christ) have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.

There have been many days in my life where I could only focus on the thievery, death and destructive chaos that satan infiltrated my life with and I honestly didn't believe there was another way... I thought the overwhelming brokenness was my life's call

BUT......

Then I let the SONSHINE IN.....and I promise the darkness and decay of  pain, worry, disappointment, poor decisions began to lift from my life.

And the thing I love most about God is that the SON's presence in my life is exactly as a sunrise is to the world. There are some things that immediately as day breaks are affected by the Light and are transformed immediately. However, there are other things that as time has gone by the SON has continued to RISE and touch them with his Power and Energy as the day of my present life goes on...

I AM A WORK IN PROGRESS...

WE ARE WORKS IN PROGRESS...

YES, there are some things in our lives where we're not fully delivered yet but that's ok.... because the SON is stilling rising in those areas...His LIGHT will be shown there soon enough....He's already reminded me....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

The power of the SON is yet being stored up by way of the Holy Spirit just like solar power...When things get dark...remember HE is still with you! It DOES NOT MATTER what you've gone through, are going through or forsee in the days to come....Speak to it NOW!!!!  

Satan took my innocence through sexual abuse.....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I feel overtaken by the spirit of depression....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I've don't know what real love feels like....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

My heart is broken from rejection and disappointment...IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I've made a lot of bad life decisions.....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I'm financially barren and don't see a way out...IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I feel overtaken by loneliness as a single....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I feel unfulfilled and unsuccessful.....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

My marriage has fallen apart and I feel like a failure....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

I'm ashamed of my past and where I come from...IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!


Whatever you are up against I PROMISE YOU....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

No matter how permanent it feels to you...The secret to overcoming even the most painful, unchangeable situations (death, divorce, permanent losses) that plague you is to earnestly pray this simple prayer....

"NEVERTHELESS NOT MY WILL BUT LORD YOUR WILL BE DONE"

.....and immediately a shifting happens and strongholds begin to be released!!!

My friends....BELEIVE THIS IN YOUR HEART TODAY!!! If you need someone to believe with you....I DO!!! If you need someone to pray with you... I WILL!!

Speak this word of prophecy to anything in your life that is out of alignment with the truth of God.....IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!! When something arises that begins to overwhelm you....speak it...IT WON'T ALWAYS BE THIS WAY!!

BELIEVE GOD FOR ALL THINGS IN YOUR LIFE....and open up the window of your life and

LET THE SONSHINE IN.....

I love you.....

My INSECURITY Blanket

Hello.

My name is Shawnee.

And I'm an insecure person.

There, I said it!  I'M INSECURE!!!! 

I don't think many people will understand how difficult that is to type, much less admit....the problem with admitting it is that I automatically feel like people will misunderstand me. But the irony is they really should understand me the more. However the pain of  INSECURITY is also wrapped up in the HEALING.....  

YOU HAVE TO EXPOSE WHAT'S REALLY ON THE INSIDE

I think INSECURITY is one of the most commonly misdiagnosed ailments in people. It comes in so many different shapes, forms and behavioral patterns you often can't pinpoint it. Society has taught us that INSECURITY looks a certain way but almost always it exist in behaviors that are both familiar and  polar opposites

I'm INSECURE so I..... 

overeat ...............................don't eat at all 

underachieve........................overachieve 

can't accept criticism............criticize everyone else

compete with everyone ................am afraid of competition

try to control others.......................refuse to be controlled

talk too loud .......................................don't talk enough

act nonchalant about everything............seem moved by anything 


BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, THE TRUTH IS.....

I'm INSECURE, so I try to do whatever is necessary NOT to be found out BECAUSE my FEAR of being EXPOSED before people is greater than my DESIRE to be FREE in CHRIST!

INSECURITY to me is like a tree.....since I've spent close to 30 years dealing with it I know its roots run deep and MY branches are long and full of leaves....Some leaves have fallen due to the natural change of seasons in life but often times other leaves have taken the place of those that the seasons have taken away.

I've finally decided that it is time to UPROOT this tree...I know it WON'T be easy but thankfully I've called on a professional to handle the project because I know that I cannot....

I've am confidently calling on Jesus in my time of need.....Christ has come to make an impossible and overbearing job bearable....

 Matthew 11:28-29

²⁸ Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

He has sent His Word to prune my diseased branches

He has sent The Holy Spirit to comfort my cold and exposed inner and outer man

He has sent excellent friends and family to be a multitude of counselors where I can find safety from the elements that will try to take advantage of my vulnerability

He has sent His Love to dry up every poisonous root so that I can no longer infect myself or the other trees around me. 

And in the place of all that He is taking away....just like the restorer I know Him to be He has planted me as a new tree BUT this time I'm planted by the river that flows with Living Water, my roots are growing faster and stronger than ever before and the SON is shining directly on me.

 I shall not be moved... 

The MOST POWERFUL part of my testimony is that CHRIST DID IT!

The MOST HUMBLING part of my testimony is that He has allowed me to SHARE IT! 

Hello.

My name is Shawnee.

And I'm an INSECURE person, but the SON has set me FREE!


I think this is the part where everyone in the room is supposed to respond back , HI SHAWNEE!

JOHN 8:36

My Solitary Confinement...

I just want to be FREE.

I know that may seem corny or even cliche  but it's what I want...

I know in my heart someone else is aching for the same...I am confident God desires for me to be transparent about it because others have thought it, said it, screamed or cried it at some point in their lives.  

#FACT: There are moments that we become overwhelmed and we feel the pressure begin to surround us as if we're in a small jail cell. 

#FACT: Those moments are so lonely they are indescribable. You can't cry out the pain and you can't fight the frustration.

# FACT: The worst part of this moment is that it remains a secret to the world around you.

~In my HEART I want to be FREE, so I can love without fear. In my MIND I want to be FREE, so that I'm no longer paralyzed by self doubt.  In my RELATIONSHIPS I want to be FREE so that I can be the vessel God has called me to be for others.~

~ME~

 

This blog is about my journey to FREEDOM in some respects but more so about my desire to help someone else avoid the mistake of self confinement.


This blog is about a young woman who lived many years lonely in crowds, full of secrets rooted in shame, the life of the party but dead in my own mind, defensive against the defenseless and angry at my own lack of peace. 


Until the day I discovered the window in my jail cell....and then EVERYTHING CHANGED. 

EVERYTHING CHANGED the day I let the SON shine in....

 *John 8:36*